Crazy World!

When Worlds collide.

That's what I feel like, just now.

It is incredible how lives can change and slip, ever so slowly into chaos.

Just when I began to feel that my life was taking a turn for the better, I am confronted with something that, years ago I would have dealt with, without a second thought.

Age weary and a head full of "what if's" does nothing for my confidence, in my ability to provide for everyone's needs.

The Worlds, I speak of, are the many individuals who are showing "symptoms" of misjudgement and fatigue. At one time. I would, again, have found no difficulty in aiding their quandaries. 

Now, their suffering weighs heavily on my shoulders and the stress monster tugs, ever harder, at my elbow. How can I help everyone; how do I provide for their failings, and cater for my own failures and torments too?

It has to be said, that I never would have believed that I would be struggling with "normal" family pressures, yet I am. Each day provides more complicated turmoil and the need for quick thinking. 

Tonight, the wife and I are "baby-sitting" a six year old, a two year old and one of premature twins, following my daughters collapse. She has been visiting her second twin, who has had great difficulties to endure. After two months, she is fighting kidney and heart problems and, at a mere three pounds [still] she is unable to leave hospital. A weight of four/four and a half pounds being the requisite weight for a healthy trip home.

However, due to the extreme anxiety of my daughters visiting regime, and hectic time constraints, she has collapsed through lack of food and drink.

The "ball", as they say, is well and truly in the air and rest bite from the provision of care seems distant. 

I can only hope that, at some stage, my wife and I will be able to find a middle ground, where we can satisfy our need to be together and to discuss our own future wishes.

Like my father once said, "if you wrote your life down, no one would believe it".

As life continues to deal me the short hand, I think this analogy is far from controversial. 

Tomorrow is another day, so let's see what joys it has to offer.